Tonight I listened to You Raise Me Up by Josh Groban. I would always listen/interpretive dance that song with my best friend. But here, I have maybe 2 or 3 people I could do that with. And only one is not married! People are so caught up with things going on in their own life that I do not feel like they have time to really get to know who I am, not who the surface susan is.
I continue to tell myself, wait until I graduate and move away, then things will improve, but will they? Will I learn how to open myself up to people enough to create a solid bond? I desperately want to get out of the bubble of provo/ happy valley, but I do not know if that will improve my situation.
Bottom line, I just want someone I can sit down with and talk to for hours without even realizing how long it has been. Talk to someone on a more personal basis without trying sugar coat things or worry about them judging me. I guess this is why I have a blog, to do this and not feel like I am impeding on anyone.